i feel so hated and under-appreciated

how can someone find me annoying when i'm not trying to be? i hate it... finding me annoying... like the normal me... i shouldn't be hated for being me...

all day, everything i have done has been wrong... my parents aren't happy with anything a do... i do it regardless... and then they expect more on top of it... comparison is the source of all unhappiness, but why do they never seem to give my siblings this much trouble... they don't even realise...

ever since i dropped out of school nothing i do is enough...

when i screw up when i try something for the first time... it hurts extra when people treat me bad for getting it wrong... i already hav a fear of trying new things and the unknown... when i don't do something right i already feel bad on my own accord, i don't need another people making me feel worse...

this really has no relevance to DA... i just needed a rant...

thanks for reading...

(i can't change my mood... DA has fucked up yet again)